WHO IS THAT IN MY REFLECTION

Today's Post is all about how you see your self from what other may think they see.

All my life all I have ever heard is why do you have this and your so weird, or the favorite YOU WONT FIT IN THAT YOUR TO FAT. All those words my not hurt you physically but they do hurt emotionally and mentally. I know that feeling and I know how hard it is to go past that pain. But know that it doesn't matter what those people have to say, they are not going to be there with you for the rest of your life. You have control of who hurts you and who doesn't it's not the other way around. Your the only one that has control of your life. They might think its all fun and they don't care how it makes you feel. But remember this in the end they are the ones who are weird and have more problems then you might have. Those people are not happy with there own life that they have to go around and tell people things that really is what's wrong with them self. Yes its hard to not let those words get to you and bring you crashing down and it might be even harder if your a teenager. Just don't let it bother you , stand up for your self and ignore peoples rude comments. Your BEAUTIFUL and your an amazing person and you have talents and you bring a smile to people. Be your amazing self and people will see that you are a great person to have around. I believe you are and always will be. Not every one in this world is perfect, everyone comes in different shapes and forms. That's what makes people unique. I might self may not be the greats looking person out there and I won't lie and say I don't have problems with my physical self because I do but I have amazing people that remind me every day how great of a person I am and that they love me. Just focus on those who bring positive energy to you and never bring you down. Those are the people you need to keep around. All the mean people can go fly a kite :)

xoxo Mulan

ELLA

So it's now time to write about one of the most important person in my life. This here is my best friend, my sister, my life saver, my rock, I could go on and on about her. Point is she's the reason I'm alive and sitting here writing this blog post today. Me in this girl have gone threw the most craziest stuff ever. I have been friends with her for 12+ years and those have been the most amazing 12yrs in my life. Now I think its time I start writing to her in my post...
Dear ella I know I tell you this all the time and you know that I mean it with all my heart that I love you and thank you for always been there when I need a sister to talk to when I'm going threw my mental break downs and I seriously owe you and nena my life. You have been the reason I stopped doing all my stupid stuff in my bullied years. You were the one of the persons that showed me that not everyone in this world thinks I'm deformed or have some kind mental issues. You should me to stick up for my self and not let people get to me or bring me down because I'm a good friend and a good person. Your always there when I need someone to run to or I have something random to say which is all the time lol. Thank you for everything and were going to be with each other for ever literally look at you ink lol. I love you sis.

So if your some one out there that has there own "Ella" make sure you never let them go. They will always be there for you and never leave your side. I won't ever let her go. Best friends are the one person you can always count on with anything.

xoxo Mulan

STAY STRONG

Sometimes you don't realize how important a person is to you until you lose them. I know how important my friends are to me and being a person who has been bullied almost all her life knows how important it is to have the only friends you have close to you. Sadly there's is still people out there that want to do everything in there power to take those people away from you and bring you back to square one. Don't let those people bring you down, sometime you think that life has given up on you or you have nothing to live for. I say this because I know exactly how that feels. But know that there is people out there that care for you and are their for you when you need a rock to fall on. I am personally going threw something like this I only have 3 very close friends in my life my two sister and a brother. Knowing that right now I can't have one of them in my life is bringing me so down and my heart hurts but I love them and I know that soon everything will be fine. Don't give up if you really love a person don't let them fade away. Keep them as close as you can and don't let nothing nor anyone come between you and them.

If you were every bullied or felt like your whole world is crashing down just think there someone out there like me that care for you and even if we don't know each other I am a person you could come and talk to I know exactly what your feeling I won't let you crash down or make you fell like there's nothing good to live for. Be strong and don't give up on your self because when you do others will too.

Just remember all the good things and stay positive sooner then later everything will be fine and it will all be in the past. Your life will be full of joy and happiness.

I am trying as hard as I can to stay positive and I know its hard but you will get threw it.

This isn't for anyone in particular just for anyone with a broken heart or someone who is going threw some hard stuff...

Remember STAY STRONG and don't give up

that's one thing I've been told so many times by those 3 people in my life and I am now realizing that losing a friend is the most heart braking this in the world but I'M OKAY. There the one that kept me alive then and now so I'm okay. :)

xoxo Mulan

A Day In The City W/ The Boys

So its been a while since I walked the streets of downtown Chicago. I had a amazing time with 3 of my guys Moncho, brother Tito and Guz. Saw way to many pretty boys and ppl who were just plain different lol so recap... Went to shed aquarium.. went to c Marlin Monroe... and just walked around... Ill post few pic. of my day

xoxo Mulan

KNOTBSB CONCERT!!

So today I went to my first concert ever... I was at the KNOTBSB concert!

it was amazing!! I always wanted to go to the Backstreet Boys concert since I was little and now at 21 I actually got the chance to go... it was amazing... even if were older now and they finally got together well just missing Kevin it was still amazing. This is one day I'll never for get... we actually got to see all of them up close.. we were all standing by were all there busses were. We saw Brain playing ball with his son and saw A.j, Howie and Nick going into there busses and Jordan from knotb playing football with brain.. well here are some pictures of this amazing evening/night.

Life....

So it been a while since I have written anything here except the last post about my Zombie....

so what have I've been doing??? Well finishing school, working , and I think that's pretty much it...

I really don't have much of a social life right now well actually I never have... only if you count going out to the movies w/ my couple of friends...

Uuuhh but I have been hanging out allot with my best friend Ella oohh Ella I love her so much!

my life is pretty much complete w/ her and zombie.. they both are amazing... i love them so much!

Well first let me tell you about school.... oohh school... Well I'm on my last two months and then externship ( scary shit!) and well so far I dislike are dean she's something special... but hey so far i like 3 out of 4 of my instructors... ummm idk what else to say about school.. school is just school...

Ummm I don't have nothing good to say just that the X-man movie is freaking awesome.. well from what I've seen so far lol....

Let's c ummmm oOOo I went shopping... but some cool things...

well umm that's my update for now...

-Mulan

ZOMBIE!

Soooooo this is my zombie, yes a zombie...( inside joke)

well this kid here is a very very special to me, his become one of my closes friend and my #1 texting buddy. idk what i would do with out him, he has "tried" to show me that I'm beautiful from the inside out and that no matter what in the end it is more important that I love my self and not let no one else get me down. I would and I will ALWAYS && FOREVER love him and even if we might stop talking (hope it never happens) I will always have him in my heart and never forget what he means to me. * Moncho i love u kid and remember that no matter what happens i will always be here and miss spell everything and just simply love u* ummmm well that enough im about to cry ahhh!!!!

-Mulan